The other day the power went out at the Church. Thankfully, the Glennon House power stayed on. The only problem is that our internet access comes from a server that is located over at the Church. This means that we didn’t have access to any of our files.
In essence, I was powerless to do any work that depended on the computer.
This made me think about how most of my life I went through life depending on my own strength. As you can imagine, I often ran out of steam or didn’t even have enough power to get started. That’s because I wasn’t created to run under my own power. I was created to receive my strength (power) from the Lord.
When I didn’t know the Lord, I was a lot like my work computer that couldn’t connect to the internet without the Church’s power. I could function, to an extent, but I couldn’t function to my full capability.
I tried for years to get my life together both mentally and emotionally. Under my own strength, the “togetherness” never stuck. It wasn’t until I turned to the Lord, asking for His strength, that I was able to live a life that even resembled togetherness. It was His healing power at work in me that gave me the strength to make the needed changes in my life.
The same was true when I tried to beat my addictions. As an alcoholic, I quit drinking in numerous occasions. I was hospitalized for alcoholism as a teenager. I attended more AA meetings then I can count. I did everything humanly possible to stop drinking. Sometimes I was successful, even for years at a time, but then something would trigger the underlying wound that drove me toward alcohol and I would fall off the wagon. This cycle went on from the time I was sixteen years old until I was in my thirties.
Then at the age of thirty-three, I turned to Jesus.
For the first time in my life, I was able to begin to experience true freedom in the area of addictions. The lesson I learned about relying on God’s strength began to bleed over into other areas of my life. I soon realized that the times when I felt most drained were times when I was trying to do things under my own strength. I was not created to go through my life under my own steam. I was created to draw my strength from God’s power. He will supply the power I need to walk through life.
…I am the Lord All-Powerful. So don’t depend on your own power or strength, but on my Spirit.
Zechariah 4:6 (CEV)