My thoughts are nothing like your thoughts,” says the Lord. “And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine. 9 For just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so my ways are higher than your ways and my thoughts higher than your thoughts…
Isaiah 55:8-9 (NLT)
In one of her devotionals, Beth Moore talked about how her youngest daughter came in to the world to take over. She walked ahead of the family, so it would look like she came by herself. She seemed to assume that she was equal on the hierarchical level as Beth and her husband. Beth was often saying to her, “me parent, you child.”
When I read that it made me wonder how many times God has wanted to say to me, “Me God, you not!”
I think I popped out of the womb headstrong and independent. I’ve always had a unique way of doing things. Often it was the wrong way, but it was my way. I was one of those kids who had to fall flat on my face before I would admit, that maybe – just possibly, my way was not working.
My life was created out of a series of dysfunctional behavior patterns that I repeated incessantly. Over and over again, I’d do the exact same thing swearing that this time the outcome would be different. Of course, it never was – but I still insisted on doing things my way.
Stepping out of the comfort zone of those dysfunctional behavior patterns scared the wits out of me. I refused to accept the advice of my parents, friends, and counselors. My stubbornness (often called being “stiff-necked” in the Bible) was my own downfall. I seemed determined to keep myself trapped in my personal prison of destruction.
I was constantly trying to be the authority figure in my own life. I ignored everybody’s warnings that I was headed for disaster. When I returned to a relationship with the Lord, I got better about trying to stop and listen to His warnings when I was headed in the wrong direction. But sometimes, my stubbornness still raised its head.
It has taken me quite a while to agree that God’s ways are always going to be better (higher) than my ways. Not only are they better, they are also ALWAYS in my best interest. God’s way keeps me safe from my own headstrong decisions. He has great plans for my future, good plans, if I would just stop getting in the way. (Jeremiah 29:11)
On the days when I feel like I’m trying to take back authority from God, my prayer is going to be a simple one to the Lord, “You God, me not!”