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Soul Hole

I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, 17 so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, 18 may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, 19 and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God. (Ephesians 3:16-19)

I spent most of teenage and young adult years feeling empty inside. It was as if there was a huge hole in my soul that nothing satisfied. I tried stuffing relationships in that hole. I tried stuffing alcohol in that hole. I tried stuffing drugs in that hole. But nothing filled that gaping hole.

Then in 1996, the movie Jerry Maguire hit the big screen. There is a scene when Jerry and Dorothy are riding in an elevator with two people talking in sign language. When the two people get off the elevator Jerry says he wonders what they had said. Dorothy replies, “They said, ‘You complete me.’”

After watching that scene, I decided that the only thing that would “complete” me was having someone love me so much that they would complete me and I would complete them. So, I spent all my energy on trying to find that someone who would love me that much.

I can tell you from firsthand experience that it is an exhausting endeavor trying to find someone whose love completes you. It is also a futile search because no person will ever be able to satisfy that huge whole in the soul. They weren’t created to fill that void. In fact, that void in our soul was created to be filled by only one thing.

God.

It wasn’t until I came to the Glennon House for inner healing that I began to even catch a glimmer of insight into this. St. Augustine (Confessions) said it like this:

“You have made us for yourself, O Lord, and our heart is restless until it rests in you.”

I felt empty because I was empty. My heart was restless because it wasn’t resting in God. I hadn’t asked God into my heart. I had head knowledge of Him from my childhood attendance of Church, but I wasn’t in relationship with God. I had been seeking to be filled by all the wrong people. They weren’t bad people, just the wrong people because they were never meant to complete me. The only way for me, or any of us, to be truly satisfied is to be in a relationship with Jesus.jesushealsthebleedingwoman

Until I stopped my desperate search for some person to love me and complete me, I wasn’t able to see that only God alone can fill that soul hole. Through inner healing, I’ve learned to stop stuffing other people and things into that void. My track record is far from perfect in this. Every once in awhile I find myself reverting back to my old habits, but as soon as I feel that unsatisfied feeling creeping up in my gut I stop to turn my eyes upon God.

Sometimes asking God into our hearts is instantaneous other times it can be a process. I think it is human nature to keep some parts of our hearts private. It is the process of turning those parts, of our hearts, over to God that happens in inner healing. If you’ve never asked God into your heart or if you want to turn over the private parts to God please call the Glennon House for an individual prayer appointment with one of our trained Prayer Ministers.

God wants to complete you, will you let Him?

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